Bon Iver - Holocene
This is one of the few things currently keeping me sane.
hey guys guess what i’m home! i’ll be here for two weeks and i want to see all your lovely faces. it’s been way too long and that’s probably my fault. but i wanna have a privuhlodges reunion. let me know if you’ll be in town between now and june 5thish.
I was accepted to a summer internship! It’s in Miami working as a paid undergraduate counselor at a summer treatment program for kids with ADHD. I will be implementing an evidence-based behavior modification treatment in which I get to teach basketball, swim, and play games with a group of 6-8 year olds for 8 weeks. I am beyond excited and the only downside is that I have to find my own housing in Miami. I need to concentrate on how I feel right now so that I can work on feeling like this all the time instead of just when I receive excellent news.
I feel empowered.
Highs:
- I’ve met a ton of new people and made lots of new friends
- I currently have all A’s even though I’m working 30 hours a week on top of classes
- I finished a bunch of different projects
- I’ve made progress on my feelings for Justin and I’m happy with how things are
- I finished reading a novel
- Whitman men’s basketball is finally good, we play in the conference championship tonight and going to games has been a blast
- I bought 10 books as a used book sale for $2 each
- A new frozen yogurt shop opened in town and it’s insanely delicious
- I’ve gotten significantly better at snowboarding, I’m pretty much the shit
Lows:
- I’ve barely talked to my siblings
- I’ve been continuously exhausted
- I’ve been stressing about the summer
- I haven’t been able to devote as much time as I’d like to each of my commitments
Goals for the next month:
- Figure out my summer plans
- Enjoy myself in Italy with my family, leaving all my stress in the U.S.
- Continue to do well in my classes
- Read two novels
- Don’t get hurt snowboarding
- Continue going to the gym three times a week
- Keep posting on tumblr
- Sleep at least 8 hours a night
- Worry less, laugh more
A problem I have had. Well, I guess I’ll go at this from a medical perspective because I don’t really feel like thinking of another problem. My biggest health problem is orthostatic hypotension, meaning my blood pressure drops significantly when I stand up. So, when I go from lying down or sitting to standing, my body doesn’t shoot blood to my brain fast enough, so my brain is oxygen deficient. This causes blurry vision, lightheadedness, general weakness, and fainting. This is a common disorder for the elderly, pregnant women, and drug addicts. Since I don’t have any other disease that would cause this, except for a somewhat low blood pressure normally, I just drink lots and lots of fluid and make sure some of it has sugar. This eliminates the fainting, which is always good.
I guess the kind of person who attracts me is passionate about at least one thing. It doesn’t have to be school-related, but it has to be something. I’m attracted to people who family, or other people in their lives, that they love unconditionally and aren’t afraid to say so. I’m attracted to people who are athletic in some way, who are genuine, who cook well, who are healthy, who know when to be serious and when to be completely not serious. I also like people who are at least decently intelligent and people who have accents.
I guess I would say that my entire family fascinates me. I constantly learn so much from all of them, and they never bore me. They are the coolest people I know.
Day 24
The Land Before Time
My favorite movie since I was three years old. It still makes me cry.
Changes over the past 2 years:
- I no longer ride horses (this isn’t a permanent change)
- I’m no longer a hard science major
- I’m more confident in making decisions
- I drink occasionally
- I appreciate my family more
- I work two jobs on top of being a full-time student
- I’m single
- I volunteer regularly at the humane society
- I changed my plan for what I’m doing after college (most likely will change again)
- I lost my V card
- I’m a better leader
- I’ve got money in the bank
- I have learned a lot in the past two years in a lot of different ways
Since it didn’t specify television, I’m going to say that one of my favorite shows is Spring Awakening. The story, the music, and the characters are all incredible. There is seriously nothing like it. Lately I’ve become re-obsessed with the original Broadway cast recording and haven’t been able to stop listening to it. Everything about it is beautiful.
